Have you ever been praying about a specific matter for weeks, hearing God’s response in your head, but unsure of what he wants you to do? Then you feel his response, either within a dream or it literally just smacks you in the face while you’re driving down the road. Only, it’s not what you wanted to hear.
If you haven’t, then maybe my story will help you relate. See, I’ve been praying about a situation with “M” for weeks now. I’ve been hoping that God’s response would be instant blessing, sudden happiness and everything I want, when I want it. Unfortunately, God is not on the same schedule as me.
On Saturday morning, I woke to two simple words resounding in my head, “Let Go”. Obedient, at least in my sleep-filled head, I went into my phone and deleted “M’s” contact information. Yet, somehow, it took until today to delete him on SnapChat. I’ve had the same two words I awoke to on Saturday morning resting on my heart all weekend, night and day and constantly. It’s such a simple phrase, but it’s terrifying, isn’t it? To actually put all of your faith and hope in God regarding a situation that you want a quick fix to. For those who find it easy, I admire and hope to one day be like you.
“For the LORD Almighty has purposed, and who can thwart him? His hand is stretched out, and who can turn it back? – Isaiah 14:27“
As difficult as it is to just hand over the reigns, I feel lighter. I know in my heart that God has control now and, as Chris Tomlin puts it, if our God is for us, then who could ever stop us? Really, right now I know that handing over control will make it all work out in the end. Sadly, this knowledge doesn’t make me instantly happy. However, I have the cheesy theme song from Frozen playing in my head, over and over, “Let it go”.
So, here I am, after two days of prayer and worry, here I am. Handing over the reigns regarding everything – including my crashed car, “M” and school – to the all powerful Father. This is it, this is that moment, the moment where all of my hopes and worries are with God and he has control. I’m letting go and moving forward, for there is light and God will take care of me.
“When anxiety was great within me, your consolation brought me joy. – Psalm 94:19″