About three months ago, I applied for graduate school at the University of Wisconsin – Milwaukee. Honestly, I decided to take a shot in the dark to see what would happen. After months of patiently waiting, I received an envelope in the mail. Not a large envelope, but a small one – the kind that means you weren’t accepted. I opened the envelope and, sure enough, my suspicions were confirmed. I wasn’t accepted.
A couple of weeks ago, this would have resulted in a long list of questions, all starting with “why” and they would have all been angry. But, when I saw the little black and white words on the simple piece of white paper, I felt nothing but relief and peace. What I felt the most, though, was the warmth of God holding me.
“In their hearts humans plan their course, but the Lord establishes their steps. – Proverbs 16:9”
See, this morning when I looked at the envelope, I knew that one of the many answers regarding my future was about to be revealed. For once, it wasn’t through a voice that only I can hear, but from a letter sent from a University. This answer was literally in black and white.
The words were written in a pleasant style, saying that my application was great, but this year they had so many great applications. Normally I would have been accepted, but this year there was so much competition. Unfortunately, no matter how elegantly you turn someone away, the actual answer that remains is no.
Instead of disappointment, excitement emerged from within. Fortunately, for me at least, God’s plan does not include another three years of no sleep. In fact, after this spring the slate will be wiped clean of school work, papers and boring books. I’m sure the road ahead won’t always be paved as neatly as I imagine (or maybe it will, God only knows), but I’m confident that God’s plan will outshine anything I might have had in mind.